Life of A Self Employed Girl in Her 20s | Learning to Knit, Trying CAVA, Solo Dates, Rants, & More

If you have been wondering how to try new things without feeling awkward or anxious, I need you to know you are not weird, behind, or bad at life. Sometimes growth looks less like a perfect routine and more like going to the gym anyway, ordering the meal you have been nervous to try, filming in public with people staring, or picking up a hobby you fully suck at on day one. I have been creating content online for over ten years, and I still have days like that.

Why does trying new things feel so uncomfortable?

A lot of us think new equals wrong. New feels shaky, exposed, and a little humbling. You are not doing the thing from muscle memory yet, so your brain starts acting like you are in danger when really you are just unfamiliar.

That is what happened all through this day. Going to the gym in a different way than usual. Trying Cava for the first time. Thinking about learning crochet. Filming outside. Even just standing there and ordering food with people behind me had me feeling a little anxious. Not huge, dramatic panic. Just that subtle pressure of, "Wait, do I look dumb right now?"

That feeling is normal. It does not mean you should stop. It usually means you are in a room, place, or mindset that is stretching you a little.

The truth is, most things are not as hard as they feel at first. They just feel new. That sentence alone can calm you down if you let it.

How do you stay consistent with workouts when motivation changes?

This was one of my biggest takeaways from the day. My struggle with fitness is usually not movement itself. It is consistency.

I can have a week where I am locked in, feeling like that girl, drinking my water, showing up, doing all the things. Then a different week comes and I fall off. That cycle can make you think you are lazy or unserious, when really your plan just might not fit the version of you that exists right now.

That matters.

You do not need to force a workout style that makes you dread the gym. If heavy lifting is not clicking right now, maybe full-body circuits, long walks, Pilates, stretching, or a simple trainer-led plan is the better fit for this season. The win is not doing the most intense workout possible. The win is showing up often enough that movement becomes part of your life again.

Consistency gets easier when the plan feels doable. Not cute on paper. Not impressive to strangers. Doable for your actual brain, your actual energy, and your actual schedule.

How do you stop caring what people think in public?

You probably do not stop caring all at once. You catch yourself, then talk yourself down.

That is what I had to do when I was outside with my food, setting up my camera, trying to get a thumbnail, and suddenly feeling that wave of, "Oh my gosh, people are probably looking at me." I had to remind myself of two things.

One, most people are not nearly as focused on you as you think.
Two, even if they are, now what?

That second question helps me a lot. Okay, someone is judging. Now what? My food still tastes the same. My job still needs to get done. My life does not end. Their random opinion does not pay my bills or build my confidence for me.

If caring what people think is keeping you stuck, start smaller. Go somewhere alone. Order something new. Sit outside. Take one photo. Wear the outfit. Speak up. Let the tiny brave moments stack up. Confidence is built in those little moments where you do it anyway.

What do you do when your mood drops in the middle of the day?

Real life does not care about your content calendar.

One minute I was trying new food and talking about confidence. Next minute I was frustrated after an argument and feeling like throwing the whole day away. That switch can feel so intense, especially if you are already emotional, hungry, tired, or overstimulated.

The biggest thing I try to remember is this: do not make big decisions from a heated mood.

You do not need to fake being fine. You do not need to hide that your energy shifted. You just need to give yourself a second before you let one moment wreck the whole day. Cry if you need to. Sit in the car. Breathe. Vent to your camera. Take a lap around the store. Let the first wave pass.

I am learning that healthy relationships can show you parts of yourself you did not have to deal with in unhealthy ones. That can feel annoying and humbling at the same time. You start seeing your own habits more clearly. Your tone. Your reactions. Your comfort habits. Your triggers. That is not a sign to spiral. That is information.

A bad moment does not have to become a bad day.

How do you get comfortable being a beginner?

This might be my favorite lesson from the whole vlog.

Later that night, I sat down with a little knitting kit and got humbled immediately. The instructions looked like another language. I was tired, confused, and low key irritated that I was not instantly good at it. Which is funny, since that is exactly why trying new things matters.

Being a beginner is good for you.

It reminds you that your identity is not tied to being polished. It reminds you that learning has stages. It reminds you that not knowing something does not make you dumb. It just means you are at the first step.

A lot of us want the finished product feeling without the awkward first tries. We want the hobby once we are good at it. We want the confidence once we already feel secure. We want the routine once it is effortless.

That is not how it works.

You get there by letting yourself be clumsy first.

Your little challenge for this week

Pick one thing that feels slightly awkward and do it anyway. Order the meal. Go to the class. Sit alone at the park. Start the hobby. Film the video. Ask the question. Let yourself be new at something without turning it into a character flaw.

You do not need to be fearless. You just need to stop treating discomfort like a stop sign.

Sometimes the next version of you is hiding inside the thing that feels a little embarrassing right now.