Key Takeaways
- 1Journaling clears mental clutter so you can choose what to focus on.
- 2Light movement and feeling cute at the gym can make workouts feel fun again.
- 3Your thoughts are not facts, and you do not have to agree with every one.
- 4Simple food choices add up fast for protein and gut health.
- 5Small consistent actions build proof that you are already the version of you that you want to become.
I woke up at six, not to be That Girl on Pinterest, but because I hit a point where my own mind started running the show. When my thoughts are running me, everything turns into survival mode. Bare minimum. Doomscrolling. Doing just enough so the day technically counts, but not enough to feel proud.
This vlog, and this post, are about something simple: taking that control back one small choice at a time. Not a perfect routine, not a movie montage, just an honest reset.
Journaling Before The Day Has A Chance To Talk Back
The first thing I reach for in the morning is not my phone, it is my journal. Especially if you overthink, you need somewhere for those thoughts to live that is not your brain.
My journal usually rotates between three things:
- Venting when something is heavy or annoying
- Intentions when I feel calm and want to shape the day
- Messages after I pray or meditate and feel like God or my higher self is giving me a little nudge
On this day, I did not need to vent. I felt good, so I wrote out intentions. Things like:
- Today feels productive
- I am filming, creating, and actually finishing things
- I am present in my body and not lost in my head
Journaling feels like cleaning your mental desktop. All the random files that crowd the screen move onto paper, and suddenly you can see what actually matters. When your mind is crowded, you end up focusing on things that do not deserve that much attention. Getting it out makes room for thoughts that feel peaceful instead of anxious.
Light Makeup, Pastel Gym Fits, And Letting Yourself Feel Cute
For the gym, I wore baby pink and lavender. Very soft, very “I have my life together” energy, even if that is still loading in the background.
I used to side-eye people who wore makeup to the gym. My brain was like, “You are about to sweat, what is the point.” Now I get it. A tiny bit of concealer and blush can change how you feel walking in. You feel more put together, so you show up with more energy.
Key word is light. Not a full glam that suffocates your skin. Just enough to enhance what you already have so you catch your reflection in the mirror and think, “Okay, she is cute, let us work.”
When you feel good in your outfit and your face, the workout hits different. It turns from punishment into a date with yourself.
When Your Mind Starts Lying To You
This is the part that matters most to me.
A while ago I was very into mindset work. I knew how powerful thoughts are. How you talk to yourself, how you see your life, the stories you repeat, all of that shows up in your reality.
Then I slowly stopped watching my thoughts and started believing every single one.
Instead of noticing a negative thought and letting it pass, I picked it up, examined it, and agreed with it. Over and over. That pattern turned simple thoughts into full spirals. It turned small problems into proof that nothing in my life works. It stole my creativity, my consistency, and my joy for things I love, including YouTube.
At a certain point you realize: this version of you is not lazy, she is stuck in old patterns. Waking up late, hitting snooze, scrolling more than you create, telling yourself “I will start tomorrow” again and again, that is not harmless. That is self sabotage in a cute outfit.
Nothing shifts if your actions stay the same. For me, the scary new thing is long term consistency. I have never been consistent past a month or two. That has to change if I want anything else to change.
The good news is I have proof that I can do it. I have been disciplined before. I have been consistent before. That version of me still exists. I just let my brain get louder than my spirit for a while.
Food, Protein, And Gut Health That Fell Off
After the gym I went home to make what I like to call a cute struggle meal: smoothie plus eggs.
The smoothie had frozen fruit, juice, protein powder, and creatine. Then I added whole eggs and egg whites on the side. At one point I realized I had almost 45 grams of protein in one simple breakfast. That moment low key shifted something for me.
Hitting your protein goal feels scary until you realize it is just a few intentional choices stacked together. Two eggs here, protein shake there, some meat at lunch and dinner. Simple food, repeated.
Gut health has been another theme. At one point I had lemon water, probiotics, prebiotics, and my stomach felt so calm. Then takeout, fast food, and random snacks snuck back in and all that progress slipped away.
This reset day reminded me that I do not have to overhaul everything at once. I can return to basics: cook at home more, keep fruit in the house, bring back gut friendly habits that I already know work for me.
Errands, Coffee Rewards, And Time Blindness
Once the workout and breakfast were done, life did not magically pause. I still had errands, work deadlines, and people I care about.
There was a coffee run for National Donut Day, grocery shopping at Aldi, a Walmart pickup, donating clothes, and filming content for a brand. My Google Calendar was packed, and my time blindness was absolutely trying to play in my face.
Here is what helped:
- Giving myself tiny rewards, like Dunkin, for doing hard things such as waking at six
- Time blocking my day, then gently pulling myself back when I drifted
- Letting filming and “real life” bleed together so I do not wait for a perfect moment
I love creating content, but I had to admit that my own perfectionism keeps me stuck. Sometimes the lighting is harsh, the tripod breaks, or the outfit does not slap the way I pictured. I am learning to film anyway and fix what I can in the edit.
Remembering Who You Are, Not Reinventing Everything
By the end of the day, I had worked out, eaten real food, filmed multiple things, grocery shopped, cleaned a little, drove around the city, and still made it to my grandpa’s retirement dinner.
That is not me flexing productivity. It is me reminding myself that this version of me already exists. She is not a fantasy character from TikTok. She is literally me, on the days I choose to move with intention instead of autopilot.
Every time I wake up earlier, choose journaling over scrolling, cook myself a real meal, or finish a task that I wanted to avoid, I am collecting proof. Proof that I am disciplined. Proof that I can handle more. Proof that my life feels better when my actions line up with who I say I want to be.
If you are reading this and feeling stuck in survival mode, start tiny:
- Write one page in a journal
- Move your body in any way that feels fun
- Feed yourself something with real nutrients
- Do one adult task you have been avoiding
You do not need a perfect routine. You just need one honest day that shows you what is possible for you. Then you repeat it, one choice at a time, until the reset stops feeling like a reset and starts feeling normal.
You are not behind. You are just one decision away from a different kind of day.
